Jennifer, 1981-2018

I will miss Jenn and love her for the rest of my life, and I believe that she is at peace now.

From “Borders” by Leslie Norris, adapted with liberties

...Border, boundary, threshold, door—
Orpheus moved either way, the living and the dead
were parted by a thin reflection
he simply walked through. But who can follow?

For all the boundaries I have crossed, flown over, 
knowingly, unknowingly, I have no answers; 
but sit in the afternoon sun, under mountains 
where stale snow clings in shadowy patches, 
remember my friend, how she had sung, 
hope she is still singing.

Some resources that have been helpful for me (particularly the section “I lost someone to suicide”) https://www.lds.org/preventingsuicide